I know I’ve talked before about how self-care can go by the wayside when you are trying to build a business. When I quit my job, my initial fear was my drive to work and try to continue building my business. Even though I had a base of steady clients and work before I quit my job, I was still afraid of failure. These days I’m less afraid of failure, but I still want to succeed and keep growing my business, but not at the expense of myself.
Work-life balance has been a struggle for me ever since I started freelancing on the side back in July 2014. At the time, I was trying to balance my full-time job and my freelance business on the side. I was keeping a crazy schedule and the thought of going full-time with my business so I could have better control of my life, my earnings, and my schedule was what was driving me to work such crazy hours.
I had this idealized version of what working from home would look like. I thought I’d have plenty of time to do the things I wanted to do. Surely I’d have time to workout at whatever time of day I wanted. I could wash the dishes, clean the house, and do laundry at intervals throughout the day. I’d have time to nurture my own blog instead of letting it fall by the wayside in favor of paying work from clients, and I’d have more time for fun things, you know, besides blogging. 😉
This is not quite how it worked for me. Somehow, even though I now work on my business full-time (and then some) and I have a team with a couple of writers, a VA, and tech support, I’m still struggling to keep up with my online work and work-life balance seems like a pipe dream.
Basically, this elusive idea of work-life balance seems like something that I’ll never be able to achieve and working from home didn’t solve my problems like I thought it would.
Most of the time I’m not bothered by this in the slightest. I have a driving passion to succeed and I love working on my business. I even enjoy almost all of my clients and client work. But this week has been a struggle.
Monday and Tuesday were gray, rainy, and dreary. I’ve also had a lot of non-online things going on in life the past few days and it’s been too much to handle. I was feeling unmotivated, kind of depressed, and burnt out from working. It was almost like a winter slump all over again.
I tried to take off a little early on Monday, thinking some time off that evening would help me combat these feelings, but on Tuesday when I realized just how much work had piled up, I instantly regretted it.
The feeling of too much work and not enough time to do it was overwhelming and left me even less motivated than I was on Monday.
It might not help that a lot of my work is repeat tasks that I complete every day, every week, or every month for my clients. Since my business is part freelance writing and part blog/business management, I don’t always have that sense of satisfaction when completing a task or assignment because I know I have to do it again tomorrow or again next week.
At times this leaves me feeling like I’m on a hamster wheel.
When I started writing this post, I wanted to tell you that I had a solution to fix these feelings that I’ve been experiencing and a solution to the work-life balance that I’ve been seeking since I started working from home. Unfortunately, that’s not the case. I don’t have an answer to how to solve this problem and I’m not sure anyone else really does either. Basically, I just wanted to lay it all out there in case you too think that working from home will solve all of your work-life balance issues.
Don’t get me wrong, I am much happier and more satisfied with my life now than I was a year ago. That’s progress. But running your own business and working from home is not the solution to all my work-life balance problems the way that I thought it would be, and I wanted you to know that too.
News flash: work-life balance isn’t any easier when you work from home. At least, not in my experience.
Do you struggle with work-life balance? If not, please share your magical answer with the rest of us. 🙂